March 2005 Archives

i find myself asking this question every time i see my weblog. "why do we blog?" what's the purpose of us posting our thoughts and airing out our aggravations? to make us feel better? to make others know how we feel? or maybe to manipulate them into feeling for us? like some sort of an emotional blackmail?

some say it is to meet other people with similar interests. but for me, i think some people write to make other people realize they're smart. (disclaimer: this is just one of my observations) like they have an inferiority complex of sorts. that is a disturbing thought. and what about me? honestly? at first i blog because i like to blog, post some entry just because it catches my fancy... then i realize more and more each day that i sometimes look forward to the comments posted on my blogs than writing on it myself. ergo, i have decided to take out the comments link on my blogs and just write. to hell with it if there's no comment for me to read. in any case, there's always the tag board if they want to make themsleves heard. because sometimes, it really blocks my flow of writing eh... it's like, you keep on opening your site and the first thing you check out is if there is a comment posted. then you feel disappointed when there's none. strange, isn't it? i started writing to make others hear me voice out my opinion yet after some time it switches to me looking for the comments more than me writing something profound, naughty even. wehihihi i hate writer's block. ;)

wehihihi found this test online and thought it might be interesting to find out if i am logical. apparently i am not. :lol:

You Are Not Logical

(You got 13% of the questions right) Logic is obviously not a talent of yours Or maybe your brain is totally fried today Try again later!

wehihihihi i'm NPA today because somebody who apparently does not have any regard for her well being decided that my station is the best place to use for her durned work! crap... buti na lang marie's station is avail as she does not want to log in here because there is no IE... (all hail Maxthon!! ^_^) aaaand... this PC has a YM, too!! :) lolz i love life. ;)

i just realized something last night after i came from the preliminary exam i took. i am not an intellectual person. at first i really really wanted to be one but the thing is, i'm too lazy. i'd rather be a smart aleck than be a jimmy neutron wanna be (though i can't say i want to start blabbering like a damned fool over anything and everything... o.O) as i was saying, i like how intellectuals converse with each other, but i just am not like them. dunno why, though... i'm just not. okay, my next goal... try to be an intellectual. lolz i'll prolly put my foot in my mouth several times trying to be one but, what the hey, nothing's new. hehe hmmm... "Maybelle the Intellectual Genius" not bad. wehihihi :) not bad at all. ^_~

before deciding to write on this here blog o' mine, i read an interesting insight by Robert Sternberg as it actually coincides with my POV. it is quite, quite curious how he was able to put into words what i was thinking. hehe :))

here's a smll snippet of that: Why do intelligent people fail?

01. Lack of motivation
02. Lack of impulse control
03. Lack of perseverance
04. Use of wrong abilities
05. Inability to translate thought into action
06. Lack of product orientation
07. Inability to complete tasks
08. Failure to initiate
09. Fear of failure
10. Procrastination
11. Misattribution of blame
12. Excessive self-pity
13. Excessive dependence
14. Lack of concentration
15. Spreading oneself too thin or too thick
16. Inability to delay gratification
17. Inability to see the forest for the trees
18. Lack of balance between critical, analytical, creative and synthetic thinking
19. Too little or too much self-confidence

i know i'm guilty of some of the above if not all... hmm... does that make me intelligent then? ;) wehihihihi an interesting concept i tell you. :))

I have been restless for quite some time now. Full of energy but with nowhere to focus it on... *sigh* i just wish i know what is causing this. I hate not knowing the what, why and where of things. It makes me feel vulnerable. Oh well, whatever it is, it'll either go away in due time or just introduce itself to me. Whatever it is, "bring it ON!" i'll face it all with a grain of salt and a big slice of my favorite Black Forest Cake! ;)