ocean's waves

funny how for one minute your whole damned world is fine as rain and the next, it crumbles like dust around you. i just heard today that my sister is having an operation at the Manila Sanitarium. breast cyst is what she said; like a lump that needs to be taken out. damn. what are the odds that what killed my mom would eventually plague my sister 6 years after? my sister didn't do anything wrong. all she wanted to do is finish her studies and be a successful psychologist/doctor. hell, now that this thing's come up to the surface, i'm not sure i like what i see anymore. thing is, i can not blame anybody, not my mom, not my dad... nobody but me. had i stopped playing the student and looked for a job... stopped being the lazy one for a changed, they would've had decent meals on their plates. not the poison i fed them back then. maybe we could've prevented this. no matter. i'll just hope for the best. life really is unpredictable. no amount of time could've prepared me for what i've learned. jsut like the oceans waves, unchanging, fierce, never stays the same.