i am distraught. for the longest time i have known myself, i think i finally got to the point that i am now depressed. oh, not the "shit i hate life and i want to die depressed" it's way, way milder than that. i think it's the pre-birthday blues. or maybe it's because payday is coming and i'm nearly out of cash. ::lolz:: oh, hey! i'm cured! i'm not depressed anymore. this journal thingy really works... lolz
September 2005 Archives
ahihihi am back to the real world. hehe after a long "vacation" i have done some major thinking on whether i should stay in my present company or not. again. could've been that i'm burned out and needed the vacation, it could've been the new restrictions on my personal access but i really really thought about it this time. i even went so far as to apply to other companies. in the end i decided to stay. lol other companies just do not have a good enough a package compared to what i have in my company. what's more, i can't leave bec... well, i can't leave him. lol he's too important to me and i can not bear to be parted from him. it would break the ribcages around the hollow center of my lovely person. lol bwahahaha who am i kidding. i like it here. i'm okay with the company. i'm okay with THE company i keep. lol ah well, just wish they give us a bonus. more is good. sometimes. ^_^ hehe i really want to buy that Zire72... wehihihihi
ah... the long time, er, self-imposed "company arrest" has ended last night! so now, am to be takink my much needed vacation. really good it is, da? hehe be back on monday night. ^_^
