It's tough to love someone.
Because somehow, love almost always have a knack of biting you in the ass when you least expected it. Been there, done that. It was a bittersweet experience; one that I would not survive in the long run. But then again, I wouldn't have it any other way.
Some say I wasn't even in love in the first place. I still say I loved. In my own way, I still do. But I don't think I can go back to it and still stay sane. I hurt too much. I know it was a conscious descision on my part and that it just happened. But still... Having that person with me is a balm to my wounds that would eventually heal. One can only hope.
Don't get me wrong, I don't blame my beloved about what happened. I'm merely stating facts and my curent state of mind. And like I said, I'll be with her as long as she needs me. Sounds kind of lame or uke-ish, but it's the truth. =)
I think to love is to express or give all you can to another. Although one must remember to save some for onesself. Because as individuals we must love ourselves as much as we love other. For only in loving ourselves would we really realise or learn how to love others the way we want to love them.
With that said, I'll leave it up to you to ponder such a complex and profound subject called Love.
Disclaimer: This entry is just to express my two-cents' worth and does not, in any way patronize anything or anyone. =)
Mood: Thoughtful
Health: Sick (flu)
September 2006 Archives
there's this friend of ours that i really like. thing is, it's making me nervous and giddy at the same time whenever i think about it. *fuu* i don't want to hurt this person. i know, it's such a childish thing to say.
it's just... i never thought this one's going to be serious -that ANYBODY's serious at all is such a big surprise, actually. but what if i'm not that in love and i end up hurting this one? it's not always about me, i know. i just think it is too much of a risk.
*sigh* i don't know what to do... for once in my life i'm in a quandary and there's really nothing i think i can do to clear things out.
mood: confused
