euphoria

ever get the feeling as if your bones melt like butter after you saw/talked to someone? suddenly realise you're smiling idiotically for no apparent reason and are incapable to stopping yourself from grinning? like you've found your favorite blanket and have just wrapped it around you? what is this... feeling? it's like being drunk without the side effects. all soft around the edges with the world just tilted oh-so-slightly to make everything get to be just this side of perfect. i wonder how long this... euphoria's going to last? i mean, it's not a bad feeling now that i think about it. just... different from anything i've ever felt. though i half afraid to think of what all this is going to cost me. does this make me a different person now? for once i believed that nothing else matters except how this feels. doesn't matter if i don't have thee perfect figure nor if i'm not as brainy as i think this person is... though of course theneed to make myself look good is still there, it's not the same as before when it was the be all and end all of your life to look good. huh... here i am smiling like an idiot again. odd...